GRIEVING
I really enjoy sharing all the beautiful, interesting thoughts that God has been bringing to me over the last several years, they have been building my faith day by day; however, for the last few months my spirit has been flagging, and I have written less and less until I’m now unable to write much at all. I’m forcing myself to write this message so you will know why you haven’t heard much from me and why I may not be sharing my usual upbeat thoughts and messages in the future, we’ll see.
Now on top of my little family’s normal troubles, for the last several days we’ve been grieving the death of my oldest son, Richard, who turned 57 years old last July 12th. He and I had discussed his continuous problems with failing organs, but he refused to take proper care of himself until he suffered complete organ failure. I’m not going into more detail here, it’s too painful. Richard and God have their relationship and I will not sully it by judging or second-guessing their decisions. I will just always remember the very bright, beautiful, athletic, charming, and independent guy he was growing up. He always supported me in my achievements, but he wouldn’t open up and let me give to him all I had to give, my experience in life.
This is about all I’m capable of sharing now. I pray I can resume writing soon. Your prayers for me and my family would be deeply appreciated. My love for you all is still very powerful and I’m so grateful for you all. Love to all.
Jack
Dear Mr. Jack.
It was my pleasure meeting you today. I’m thinking of our conversation and was truly touched deep in the heart . I believe god has people cross threw our path for a reason if you have the love of faith it truly is very powerful. I was so blessed. Thank you kindly and congratulations on all your achievements in this 0ne life that we live. I’m very honored to enjoy your seedstosand Blog it is truly amazing .God bless kindly regards ..Bettie lou
Bettie, so nice to hear from you and yes I really enjoyed our conversation and I’m really glad you got to meet my wife. At this point in life I think it’s very important to meet new people if we can find enjoyable and safe ways to do it and I find just speaking to people I meet around my community, just saying hi as I pass them on the street or in a store, is an excellent way to kindle a conversation. It seems that if I open up with just a smile and a word many people respond quickly. If they just say hello or hi I often get a little shot of joy in my heart. It lifts me…….Bettie, please let me know if you get this response, it helps me check on how my blog email is working. Also, I almost forgot to thank you very much for your kind words about my blog. The last several months I haven’t felt inspired to write much but I’m trying to reboot my creative juices. it feels so good and easy when I feel balanced but it’s a delicate thing for me. I’m not able like you to just pick up my pin and write. I loved hearing you say that.